Today’s What I Ate Wednesday is a little late because I wouldn’t let myself get back on the computer yesterday. Why? Because yesterday I had an anxiety attack.
It wasn’t the “OMG I have a huge paper due tomorrow and I’m totally gonna have an anxiety attack” kind of thing. It was the kind where I had to call 911 for the first time in my life and sit in an ambulance with an oxygen mask on my face.
It came out of nowhere. I woke up with tightness in my chest that I thought nothing of until my right arm starting tingling a few hours later. I thought I was having a stroke. I thought I was dying.
Because of my dad’s recent health history, my mom told me to immediately call 911. Thirty seconds into the call, both of my arms, my legs, and my face went completely numb and tingly. I couldn’t move my hands or my lips and I could barely breathe. I was terrified.
Lunch: curried chickpea kale soup + roasted chickpeas + small bowl of tuna kraut
The paramedics told me I was having an anxiety attack. I thought an anxiety attack was a figure of speech. How could this just be an anxiety attack? It turns out that anxiety attacks often lead people to the ER because the symptoms so closely mimic that of a more serious condition, like a heart attack or stroke.
Snacks: raspberries, cherry vanilla protein bar, roasted sweet potatoes with hummus and hot sauce
Maybe this will never happen again and life will go on like normal. But maybe, just maybe, it’s a sign that I need to take a step back, unwind, and give my poor brain a break.
Dinner: Whole Foods Meatless Monday plate
The strangest part is that I wasn’t even stressed about anything. I was actually having a great day minus the tightness in my chest. I think I suppress my stress. I’m a really happy person and I love what I do, but I don’t relax. I don’t ever just sit around.
And maybe it’s time that I do!